sucktember

i'm so damn glad that september's already gone so yea it's october and that means my birthday is near but um seriously i dont really care about that. because lately i gave a fuck about almost everything and that didn't turned out really good. you know what i mean? i care too much and no one even appreciate it and that's why my september sucks. can't you see that i was just trying to be a better person duh, since like no one really noticed i think i'll go back being that sarcastic person. and oh one more thing, higher expectation = higher dissapointments. and that's exactly what happened to me, i expect too much on a person that doesn't really gives a shit about what i want. well i never ask for gifts or anything like that, i'm just so tired of  listening without being heard. i mean like, i have feelings too. i know that you see me as a cold-hearted person, but that doesnt mean that you can do whatever you want you dumbass. maybe because of that douchebag, well he treated me like a princess, so i guess it makes sense that i'm hoping you would do the same, but since you didn't, i have to accept the fact that not everyone is like him. gosh i am so pissed off, why everyone is so busy and none of them trying to make time for me and on the contrary i always tried my best to make time for everyone, be there for everyone, but when i needed them they're just gone, its like they're swallowed by the earth. they didnt answer my calls, reply my text or anything. you dumb motherfuckers didnt realized how much i miss the old times, the old days, how much i miss 2012. because 2013 totally sucks.