17th April 2013.

Well its 17th april. 3rd day of national exam. and I dont know, I just feel...miserable, somehow. I just cant wait to get this over with. so I can play games all day and night to forget about everything. I guess being anti-social doesnt sound really bad, it keeps people from hurting you. I keep telling this to myself every single day: "there is no one that can free you from your misery except yourself. hold on to the things that makes you happy and let go to the things that dont. be grateful, stay positive. what goes around comes around. good things will happen to people who did good things and so does the opposite. smile, because you're alive." well it keeps me going. I just want to be happy and do the things I love. but why is it so hard? is that too much to ask? I want to have a good day(s), a good laugh with my good friends. okay, maybe I cant have it now but I'm sure I will have it someday. right now, I gotta fix this wall, because its too badly damaged, and it started to fall apart too quickly to fix. it seems like I have to accept the fact that things will never go back to the way it was. sucks huh? and yeah theres this person and I get attached, but if I stay it would be a history repeating and I dont want that. so..........I guess its clear. there's nothing left to say, then there's no reason to stay.

(if you dont understand what the hell am I talking about, its not because you are dumb. its because I dont want anyone to understand. I'm sorry. and if you dont mind, I really appreciate it if you wish me luck for the last day of national exam so I can graduate from my beloved high school.)