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is it weird how bestfriend became stranger in just a few weeks?
well yeah, there's this bestfriend named hem should i say it?  yah i dont really know what really happens. biasanya nih ya, on free class he always ask me to sit beside him. kl temen sekelas gue ada yang baca pasti langsung taudeh ini siapa wkwk. when i'm feeling down, he's the only one who can see the sadness behind my smile. HAHAHAH anjir ababil banget ya. anjir kok gue jadi ababil gini sih................ketularan zahra nih pasti.-_- we were just so close. really close. it's like the-bestfriends-that-acts-like-couple kinda thing. temen2 juga pada bilang udah tembak aja, jadian kek lu berdua gtgt deh. i want to but i won't.
yeah, he told me everything. his ex, his family, his cat, his hobbies, his stories. we share jokes, we sing together. i mean we used to. kl gue curhat tentang apakek gitu pasti responnya tuh bijak bangeeeet. yg gue pelajarin dari dia 'no matter how mean people treats you, don't ever treat them the same. you have to be nice to everyone.' hahahah it's sad how things changed. how people changed. biasanya nih: nde kantin yuk, nde sini sama gue yuk, nde mending kita nyanyi, nde sini dong gue mau cerita, nde sabtu jalan yuk. biasanya............-_- tp sekarang udah nggak lagi. biasanya kl kita ngga sengaja saling liat2an pasti dia senyum. sekarang? boroboro. pernah nengok juga nggak. its not that i like him. no not at all. i love him as my bestfriend. i don't want him as a couple. i want him as a bestfriend forever. sedih gaksih? biasanya selalu aja gue, sekarang........................hahahh being replace sucks. it really is. now i don't really know how to act. am i supposed to smile to him, or turns away everytime he sees me? anjir ngacobet bahasa inggrisnya-..- maunya sih kayak biasa aja, but everytime i see him i just can help but frowning-and-doing-that-sarcastic-eyes-thing. hfttttttttttttt bitchy bitchy bitch. don't come find me. i'm not gonna be there for you. i want to but i won't do it. so loooong and goodbye.