-: Februari 2014

I just wanted to say that I am truly sorry

I'm sorry I'm not pretty like her
I'm sorry I'm not as popular as her
I'm sorry if I'm not what you wanted
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
I'm sorry for whispering your name in my dreams
I'm sorry for writing your name in my poetry
I'm sorry for wishing you upon a shooting star
I'm sorry if I'm still hoping for you to want me
I'm sorry for being sad every time you smile at her

I am sorry

I'm sorry for screaming your name in my head
I'm sorry for not giving up on you when I know I should
I'm sorry for being jealous every time you mention her name
I'm sorry for making you my everything when I'm nothing to you
I'm sorry if I was mesmerised every time you sigh

I'm sorry
I am sorry
I am truly sorry, because I love you
….too much

well yeah i know it's a bit late (it's already february) ok so here goes

1. january: i forgot HAHA pokoknya ngerayain new year di rumah tari bareng reduskra abis itu lanjut bareng knzvmpr3 biarpun ga lengkap

2. february - march - april: i…..also forgot HAHAHA pokoknya lagi bener2 sibuk ujian praktek, ujian sekolah dan ujian nasional. disaat yang lain heboh nyiapin snmptn i chill at home because i already got accepted at umn

3. may: well, this month was kinda memorable. first, me and dikky got back together (but it didnt last long; i dont wanna talk about it) then me and my family went to Bali. we went for like a week or so um i forgot oh and we also went to Malang.

4. june: i dont really remember

5. july: um…if i'm not wrong juli lagi sibuk ngurusin daftar ulang deh and also akhir juli itu udah masuk bulan puasa. (fyi: this is one of the most heartbreaking month)

6. august: no more summertime sadness. i fell in love with bayu and it was nice. at the end of august, pas banget ultah kinan penderitaan dimulai a.k.a ospek :'( ospek kuliah tuh heartbreaking banget biarpun closingnya seru sih

7. september: udah mulai masuk kuliah wohoo shout out for the college year. dan cuma perlu waktu sebentar to made me realize HOW MUCH I MISS HIGH SCHOOL AND MY FRIENDS AND ALL THOSE DUMB STUFFS I DID BACK THEN UGHHH

8. october: well yeah it's my birthday and pampam's birthday too and um it was great i already wrote about my birthday

9. november: i broke up with bayu well it was kinda sucks but i wasn't that sad. and all i can think about was about my mid exam and dwp and there's this boy and he was kinda catch my attention (kinda?) but it didn't went well i ended up being friendzoned lol and we're still good friends up until now

10. december: I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MONTH SINCE JULY AHAHAAA yeah because of dwp, i already wrote about it. but it was literally the best night EVER. december turned out great and then bye bye 2013